CYANG

My Older Sister

freshmints — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 23:25:36 +0000

last night i had a half hour phone conversation with my older sister. it was weird, i had never done it before with her… ever. usually it be a once in a while text, and only talk in person kind of thing. we both told each other of our oh too much overly stressed university lives. she talked of friendship and feeling sensitivity, and i talked about money and ailements. strangely enough, i felt better by the end of it. my older sister and i have never really had a good relationship. in fact, my older sister never had a good relationship with anyone in our family. she separates herself from us at family events. my family may say that i am the cold and heartless one, but who is the one that is never there? that’s right, not me but her.

anyways, she said she’d support me whenever i was in trouble. if she knew anything about me, she would of course know that i hate asking anyone for help. it’s like one of my most shameful acts. i hate asking for help. only with people i feel really comfortable asking (my parents, and four bestfriends) but other than that it’s like puncturing myself with a harpoon. some might say that yeah, everyone feels like that. sure. everyone might feel like that. everyone might feel that asking for a pen from a person beside you is like asking for a two thousand dollar loan. everyone might feel the heavy breathing and rapid beating of heart when asking a stranger what time it is. and i’m sure everyone plots out ways in order to see if they can borrow clothes from their roommate because they’re too scared to ask. besides everyone feeling what i feel, it still sucks doing it. and hearing that she wants me to ask her for help…especially sucks moose balls.

her saying she would help is a nice…comforting (?) thought i suppose. i won’t ever ask her for help but it’s nice to know it’s there. we’ve had our problems in the past, and we’ve had our PROBLEMS in our past, and we’ve also had PRRROBLLEEMMMMSS in our past, but i guess we’re over that. i think.

whatever. just saying, talking to her was weird.

James Franco did what ??

freshmints — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 03:27:30 +0000

I had no idea that James Franco wrote a book. What a talented, beautiful man. I promise to read/maybe buy it one day. Just for you James, just for you.

Dentist appointment

freshmints — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 16:00:38 +0000

I just realized that I ran to my dentist appointment, so that I could be told to sit down, have my gums/teeth drizzed, have foam on my teeth for four minutes and paid 70 bucks for it. I didn’t even get the polish done.

Why da eff did I run for this….. Well. At least i got to suction my own salvia… Twice.

Losing Weight

freshmints — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 00:04:38 +0000

about three weeks ago (ish) i started a new life style… (ish). i call it: the jenna marbles body plan. i am a huge fan of jenna marbles, well… mostly her body. i am contemplating on whether i should get twitter or not, just because i want to know more about her life. that is how stalkerish i am of her.. and her life.

ANYWAYS. her bod, is i dunno, pretty amazing and so i’ve decided to try and follow her same exercise/diet routine. not hardcore like though, that would destroy me utterly and so i made a few tweeks.

jenna is 6/7 days of the week vegan, which i think is fuck-the-redicky donkey hard. (go jenna go) i am instead eating vegetarian meals every other day. for the vegetarian people about to harpoon me in the face because i’m doing this for dietary slim fasting reasons…. well fuck off. at least i am not a huge contributer to the agriculture industry’s massacre of animals to harvest meat for us consumers. i can’t go cold turkey. sorry, now go away.

she i think goes to the gym everyday and does crazy kick your ass routines, i can’t do that since i’m a fuck poor university student. so i go to the FREE school gym (not really free though….) every other day, doing a minimum of 40 minutes of cardio (i’m a cardio junkie) and for the days that i don’t go, jillian micheals kicks my ass through her yoga DVD level one. too scared for level two, maybe next year. i do the same old stuff each week, but it still makes my butt sweat so whatever.

i drink a smoothie every morning (i down it in ten minutes, no brain freeze, awww yee) which consists of: strawberries, blueberries, fat free vanilla yogurt, orange juice, a multi-vitamin pill, and some coconut oil. coconut oil is supposed to be amazing, i’ve tried it… i feel nothing different that before, but since it’s only been like barely three weeks i think the effects are still underway. (google praises the shit out of it, and so does jenna marbles.) i’m thinking of adding some peaches in, instead of blueberries next week though. exciting.

i’ve TRIED to stop eating so late at night. i still eat junk food, but not copious amounts so i think i’m faring well.

the results so far? i’ve lost four pounds of fat and gained half a pound of muscle (…i hope anyways). i’ll probably see some serious results in two months time, so i’ll just have to wait until then!

PS i’m 122 pounds, 5’2 and 3/4 (IT COUNTS). my goal is to reach my high school grade 11 weight of 115 pounds, but i’ll probably won’t go lower than 118 pounds ever again. BUT most importantly, i want to have that sexy my thighs don’t touch when i’m standing look (my thighs are my problem area). i want to have SOME sort of ab situation and possibly lose my love handles. my arms are bit flabby on the tricep area, but MERHSAOUAFG can’t have everything.

fresh start!

freshmints — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 03:41:37 +0000

in the honour of the new year, i decided to start anew with blogging. all i ever really blogged about was angst type deals, and i wasn’t enjoying it. it came to the point where i hated blogging because i knew i would only blog about something sad or something that was eating me up on the inside. i found a new blogger, everyone has probably heard of her, Xiaxue. she gave me the inspiration to blog about fun stuff. i’m going to blog about my life and pretty stuff. i’m tired of being a troubled person… i think too much. so now i’m just going to convert to an airhead. aahha no. jokes. i’ll probably still post dreary life exhausting issues of my life, but to shake things up there will be hello kitty popping up here and there.

essentially i’m trying to create a new and happier feel to this blog so i can enjoy blogging once more. i’ll try to post something twice a week. hopefully.

let the blogging commence !